Thursday, 26 April 2007

The Lone Wolf... And Me

The midnight breeze blows around me,
Trying to chill me to the bone.
It does not know I am already ice.
My pale fingers chill the wind itself.

I sit still on my lonely log.
A lone wolf howls at the moon.
His haunting cry seems to echo my thoughts.
“Why have we been driven to seek this place?”

Far from voices, far from humanity,
Far from the cage of civilization.
Here where I am the queen, where
I control none and none controls me.

The moon bathes me in her cold flame.
The shadows are the dark dagger in my hand.
I will not face the false cheer of the sun.
Take me, O dark night, don’t let me fall…

The wind is still mercilessly cold.
The Sol is gone, Luna returns to find
A lone silhouette still sits on the log.
And a wolf howls its funeral keening.

Saturday, 14 April 2007

The Legend Of The Forest Queen


This lonely landscape holds a story
Of love and longing, despair and defiling.
The ancient oaks guard their secret sorrows
And the wind still whispers its poetry.

He came through the forest, sword in hand,
Stalking a deer with feline grace
He was made to conquer, his savage cry
Reigned supreme in that isolated land.

Then the boughs parted to reveal a glade,
The throne of the woodland princess.
Her limbs were slender twigs in moonlight,
Her smile was the silver stream in the shade.
The hunter gazed in rapt wonder
At the ethereal beauty before him.
She, too, was caught by human passion.
There they bound themselves together.

He could not bear to let her fire pass into smoke.
He stayed; he built them a house, a wooden lodge,
His great axe hewed the ancient ebony, while she
Wept over the stump of the once-mighty oak.

Ah, but their love was great and deep!
Arms entwined, souls embraced, passion
Permeating every fibre of their beings…
The nymph had never such joys reaped.

She neglected her age-old kingdom’s call.
Like her wards, she too had found her mate.
But the love she found was not in her fate.
Her pristine realm showed signs of pall.

Blood besmeared the mourning willow,
Remnants of the kills for his appetite.
The corpses of mutilated trees lay around,
Foul flecks defiled the clear stream’s flow.
The untouched landscape cried in pain,
What blasphemy, what sacrilege at his hands!
Ancient nature writhed under man’s fleeting touch.
She knew that man, too, must pass like the rain.

She watched him fall.
His graceful body taut in a plunge
From the cliff to the abyss below.
She watched him fall.

Then the spiritess returned to her oaken throne,
But her smile is forevermore broken.
Pearls of infinite sadness wind their way
From her hollow eyes down her cheekbone.
Around her, the woods revived, paid the cost.
But the lonely moon even now stands watch
Over the desolate stumps, the still-black waters
And the dirge of a thousand sunrises she lost.

Tuesday, 10 April 2007

Helpless against Fate

The love songs lied. They say, “I would walk a thousand miles, I would swim across the ocean, all for you.” Here is the terrible truth: it is not so simple. Love stories don’t always have happy endings. What do the boy bands and pop princesses know? What do their dumb inane ‘omg lol’ fans know? Nothing. Nothing that matters, anyway.

The ocean seethes in turmoil, reflecting my emotions in its grey-green waters. Overhead the sky darkens, the scarlet sun swathed in shrouds of silent grey. The gulls wheel and dive, emitting their cries which pierce my heart. I stand solitary, still as a statue, as the wind wraps itself around me and whispers a tale of loneliness and sorrow. Suddenly a shaft of crimson light pierces the clouds and turns the water bloody. I am afraid.


I know where you are, across that vast expanse of waves which separates us. My heart aches for you, longing to see your smile, hear your music, touch your hands, feel your warmth pressed against mine. And the bitter knowledge that it is not to be is like a poisoned dart. I need you, but I am helpless. I can neither get you nor let you go. I hang in the void with only the wind.

As I watch, a black oil slick slowly spreads across the pristine waves, polluting them with its foul aura. The inky stain blots out the ripples and sparkles of the water below, deadening and stilling it. So, too, my heart is like the waves.

The tears threaten to wash away my fragile defenses. I know how you feel about me; you have already given me more than I dared hope, and for that I am fiercely happy. But I still feel empty, incomplete. I do not want to own you, nor do I want to belong to you. But I do want us to be part of each other, a symbiosis. Am I being selfish? Am I asking too much of fate? The answer lies hidden in the wind’s murmuring…

The pale ghost of the full moon peeks out above the horizon. Time rolls on like the ocean… will it someday break these barriers? Will you wait till then? Will I wait till then? I know not which way to choose, nor what lies ahead. I can only hope…

Tuesday, 3 April 2007

Life - Beginning To Perk Up

At last! Life's interesting.

Rugby matches are better than I expected. Or rather, just being in a stadium and yelling my lungs out is better than I expected. The rugby... nah, didn't understand much, and I don't really care. The Hong Kong Sevens Tournament was a good place to be, though. However, my attitude towards the 'sport' of rugby is pretty much summed up by this wisecrack "Rugby is played by men with odd-shaped balls".

After the match was even better. I finally got my chance to be 'evil'. I wasn't too evil by anyone's standards, but I took my first steps. It's important to break out of that cocoon, isn't it? A first time is always a first time. And yes, it makes other first times a lot less scarier. Stepping from the known into the unknown is incredibly satisfying after you've actually done it. The only disadvantage is that the unknown loses it mystery and romance... in essence, its 'unknown-ness'. Getting back home at nearly 11 for the first time adds to the heady feeling. Yes, I'm a teenager, and enjoying it!

Home's boring. Especially if you have guests coming over for dinner. Especially especially if you are expected to entertain their kids. Here's where I was proved wrong. The son of my mum's colleague turned out to be a metalhead, the first one I'm meeting IN Hong Kong. I was almost ecstatic. Time flies far too fast when you're discussing metal in a state of near-euphoria and relief. I'm heading for a gig someday with him, for sure. And yes, I owe him bigtime for introducing me to South Park!

Oh, and I'm heading for China proper - Shenzhen - in a couple of days to do the 'tourist thing'. I'm in no mood to actually live there, but travelling is good. After all, there's a lot of places to see, I might as well start just across the border. And hey, you get cheap pirated DVDs there! So... China, here I come! (oh, and Metalhead's coming with me - atleast I don't have to worry about being bored out of my wits!)

Yep, Hong Kong's not too bad after all. I'm living life in the moment at last. It's no use resisting the winds of change, is it? In fact, flowing with the current can be pretty exciting at times. Now all I need is for a typhoon to blow me away...