I can't remember the last time I felt so unwanted and worthless.
Possibly I deserve to be cast away.
Possibly it's time someone made me feel this way.
They say, pride comes before a fall.
I've told myself ten thousand times that I will never trust again.
Yet I do so, ten thousand times over, through the pain.
Why should I?
Remind me not to. It is safer.
It is a well-known fact that anaesthesia is a drug which causes no pleasurable sensations.
But anaesthetized people cannot feel pain.
That is all that matters.
...and the rays of darkness chill my fevered soul and protect me from your harsh light...
Exactly what HE would do
17 years ago
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Going over my old posts nine months later, I feel compelled to remark here that I have changed, gradually becoming who I was meant to be.
Most important, I have learned to be independent, to not base my self-esteem on what others deem my esteem worth.
Thank you, Abir. From the heart.
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